Fear and Fire......

Fear, it's in all of us for no matter what reason....some people are afraid of heights, some people are afraid of confined spaces, some people are afraid of other people, but, your internal mental fear is the hardest to conquer.
This is what makes an athlete, but in the same token, all athletes go through this and I believe the older you get, the more it plays on your mind......I mean heck, I wouldn't get what I'm trying to say now if I was 20 years old......
I have been living this fear since I got my knees fixed late March.....am I making the right decision, am I fooling myself, fear of, not failure but of letting everyone else down, fear of what others think, fear that I won't be able to honour my parents the way I want, fear of leaving my family behind.......it's been mentally tough the past few months.....all that aside, for the exact same reasons, I welcome the challenge and the new adventure that awaits me but I would be a liar and a fool to not acknowledge this very prominent trait called fear......and all my life, I thought I was only afraid of mosquitoes......
But with this contradictory emotional element comes fire.....the burning desire to succeed and to accomplish what I have laid out in front of me....the fire must continue to burn. I realize that sometimes, along the way, that fire might fizzle down to simple embers, it is called the ups and downs of training and maintaining motivation, as long as it does not extinguish. A fire burns in everyone of us, we all have a little pilot light somewhere, it's how to turn that pilot light into a burning inferno that will bring results.
So yes, I fear, for all that is in store for me and I will use this fear to fuel my inferno, cause my fear.....doesn't scare me....it just keeps me real!!
Pics.....sitting by the fire during the full moon.....a favorite and peaceful pastime of mine.
The full moon.
The way I view fear....there it is but...HA HA.....deal with it!!

Peace.